not feeling great about things, i try and help things but make them worse. went to see my aunties grave today it was very sad i haven’t been there in nearly two years its so surreal that someone could be only six feet away but feel like thousands of miles. i used the time to think, plan and reminisce about times i’ve spent with her we were really close. i was thinking of how i didn’t even get a drink with her she wont ever meet my girlfriend of see me make something good for myself. I’m sure she is somewhere keeping an eye. an auntie like a mum to me and most important a friend who i could turn to when times were tough and my head was a mess. for nearly two years ive pushed the bad feeling aside to continue living my life undisturbed and the sight of a not so impressive wooden cross with her name on it forces these feelings to surface. she was 44 and died of a broken heart. love you pep miss you deeply